Before you were born I thought I knew what love was.
but after nearly 31 hours of labour and laying eyes on you for the first time I realized this thing called love was completely different thanI had ever experienced or ever knew was possible. A love completely unmeasured and at times overwhelming. That night I should have been exhausted, but I wasn’t, I should have rested, but I couldn’t, instead all my focus was on wanting to see you, be around you, adore you and simple just look at you and love you.
You arrived at 9:55pm on August 16th via what our obstratrician so affectionately called the ‘sun roof’ aka c-section. As I was whisked away to recovery your amazing dad spent the first hour with you ‘skin to skin’ taking photo after adoring photo and even making a video so that I could feel apart of those first special moments together. I will never forget being wheeled in and seeing the amazing bond you two had already developed
Holding you for the first time, our eyes meeting, I fell in love immediately. I remember just wanting to watch you all night and take in every little detail possible. It was the most surreal night of my life.
Going into that night I was scared, nervous, excited and eager. Things didn’t go exactly as planned and things at times kind of felt out of control but when I met you everything felt right in the world. The only plan I should have had was that…meeting you.
They say you will forget the pain, the long hours and everything that happens in labour, well I haven’t, and I am glad I haven’t as it brought me to you.
I thank you baby girl for bearing with me as I learn the in’s and out’s of this crazy experience they call parenting.
I love you sweet London